My friend
He must be busy.
I am a retired man.
He is a working professional.
I have 24 hours every day to brood over my past memories.
I keep waiting for his reply to my emails.
He is busy with his professional life, his family life, and his social life.
The expectations
I wish if he could share his life with me.
But there is a generation gap,
There is little chance of normal friendship – sharing communication.
Friendship develops better, between same age-group individuals.
With me, he can just nurture a formal, friendly relationship.
I wanted to share with my friend:
My thoughts about my 94 years old father;
My worries for my spouse, after me;
And my unfinished jobs, before God calls me back.
But he is so busy!
It is a ‘bonus’ period for me, as I am over 70 years – the average age for an Indian male.
God has already hinted: the arrival of old age, for me.
I am under treatment for hyper-thyroid.
Thank You, God
I am thankful to God for my friends.
There are 5 of them, excluding my parents:
My siblings, spouse, and my sons – in chronological order of appearance in my life.
I have often wondered, ‘How long I should live?’
I do understand; I have no control over it.
I pray to God:
I should never be a liability to my family.
Let me out-live my parents: who are 94 and 90;
Let me live a day more than my wife,
To enable her to continue living uninterrupted, in same ambience, with ‘yours truly’, at her service.
Let there be no change, during her lifetime.
And she continues to enjoy the luxury of blaming me, for anything that has gone wrong in her life.
And with all her nagging, and trust deficit, I still, experience her love for me in her eyes.
Thank You God, for following FIFO in our family.
Please keep it up.
When my turn comes
Thank You, God in advance, for the wonderful time I had.
I wish my body is donated to a hospital for donating my usable organs to needy persons, or for young medical students to study anatomy.
It is so expensive to die, if we follow the rituals.
Why do we insist on getting buried or cremated in our home-town?
Why should we have community meals?
Why should a dead body be made to pay obeisance to God in temple, during the final journey.
It is done, because our society expects.
Life is just an integration of our expectations: self-expectations, social expectations and finally family expectations.
And unfulfilled expectations result in unhappiness.
